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Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Insomnia and Me..


What was that time the mobile phone was showing? Something past 2 AM? 2.35 I guess.
With Barely one eye open I saw the time and cursed those dogs barking outside. And, a cough came in between to cut the panorama of curses to those stray dogs. Dont they sleep at night? Shouldn't they be sleeping? Gulp! Swallowed some saliva to moisten my dry throat.Why did I become thirsty suddenly? Or did I just realise that I was thirsty? I still can hear them barking at infinity. And that nerve on my left shoulder pulling and hurting to add to the grief of sleepless night. Why dont I sleep? I close my eyes to collect some sleep and Invade. It never comes to me. They bark the whole night, I listen to them and curtly curse them. Another cough and I stretched my arms to give those nerves some comfort, it said just leave it stretched.. I left it. Spondulytis hurts.. Invariably you will get used to the pain. Now one eye started to hurt, since am typing on the phone with one eye open. The light is irritating. I yawn and rub the same eye which is closed. Dogs dont bark anymore?.. Rubbing my eyes again I thought.. When was the last I had a sound sleep without... Yeah its difficult to type with one eye open. I squeezed myself to comfort the shoulder this time. Feels better.Oh.. They had not stopped barking. I can hear the pests.Do they hear my curses? Looking at those stars and moon I have glued on the ceiling for little Amul.. I think.. Why am I up at this hour of night?... Oh Look I have both eyes open now and thinking if its worth writing this at this hour?.. I heard them barking again, fighting hard to restrict any entries to their areas- wish I could refrain from such thoughts. Such thoughts?.. A zero feeling which wakes me at any time it wants, 3am, 4am or 5, comes to me at its wish to wake me up all wide staring at those lifeless plastic stars and moon. With the same feelings I have, even those stare at me sticking to the ceiling. . . Why is no one around me? Loner looks around for assurance.No one. No one around. Whom am I looking for? What if someone was around? The feeling is just yours.. Zero is what you feel, not the ones around.. I pull that soft cushion near and the book on it followed it slyly.. They were quiet and now started barking again..Now more louder? Or is all my attention towards their sound? Dont know...Slowly I will get sleep..Am getting sleep.. Do they know its impossible to ignore such bastards barking through the night?... Asleep.....